Tired

So, I just want to say how tired I am today. Tired as in sleepy, tired as in tired of fighting about stupid things, tired of stupid people. Just plain tired. I wish sometimes that I was more appreciated. I think that I am a fairly good person, and that I usually have the best intentions, I realize that I am not perfect, however, I know that I am not a horrible person. Yet some people like to make me out to look like a horrible person. So I am tired of that also. I really hope that someday Skyler will realize that I am amazing and treat me as so. Cuz right now, it is very frustrating the way he is acting towards me. Either that, or I hope that some day I can find a guy who will love me, and cherish me forever. Every girl deserves to have that. I just haven't really found it yet. I have had a lot of almosts, but haven't landed that great person for me yet.

Work Politics.

So I came to work and found that my hours have been cut. Not because I am a bad worker, not because I haven't been doing my job, not because of being overstaffed or anything of the sorts. Because the girl that takes care of the schedule doens't like me. How rediculous is that. The funny thing is we used to be friends till one day I was frustrated with her because we go to school together and she didn't want to do her dishes and I told her that she shouldn't leave them for other people to do, so I told a mutual friend of ours that I was a bit frustrated, and now she has vowed revenge. She has formed a group at work to try and get me fired. I am not just assuming things either, I have been informed from a few people at work. Even my boss has noticed that something is off. My boss told me tonight though, that he wants to get someone else to take care of the schedule because she isn't being fair, she is playing favorites. But most of the people that are working here have a set schedule that they went over with the bosses. So at least my boss is noticing something is up. Anyway, I am hoping actually to be changing positions at work and not have to work with her any more. It would be great. So I will find out tomorrow if I get the new position. I'll keep you updated.

Relationships

Well it has almost been a year since Skyler and I started dating. The second longest relationship I have ever had. We, like any other couple have our differences, however for the most part we get along great. Right now we are just working on learning all we can about each other and ourselves. We are also working on our communication skills as a couple when we are in a fight. So far we have succeeded. I am so grateful for the past relationships that have helped me figure out things for this relationship. Skyler is a wonderful person and I am very happy to have him in my life. I think that we would not have been able to work things out with each other, however, had it not been for those past relationships. So I would like to say thank you to the guys I have dated and the girls Sky has dated for helping us know how to work things out with each other. :)

Wow, it's been a while.

Well, I guess it is about time I let everyone know what is going on in my life. I have been quite busy, working two jobs and now going to school also. I rarely have time for anything. Skyler and I broke up a few months ago, but it was really for the best. However, we are still dating and doing better now that we aren't termed "boy/girlfriend". It has brought us closer together, we both needed to work on some things and this has given us that chance. It helped me realize that I really need to go back to school already and quit fooling around. I am very greatful for that. It has helped him look at his life and re-evaluate things, now he is looking at what he wants to do when he "grows-up". We are much stronger as a couple now. We are hoping that this will help the relationship in the long run, and that we will be better able to work through our difficult situations. It has kinda forced me to look at the relationship and decide if I really want to be with him, and I am 99.99% sure I do. I am just not ready to give him my whole heart.

Well that pretty much sums things up. I don't know if I posted a while ago that I got a new car, if I didn't, I bought a 2005 Honda Civic two door coupe. I love it. It is a 5 speed and I promised myself that I would never buy another automatic, so it was perfect. And... I did it all on my own, no help from mommy and daddy. That made me feel like I was actually doing great things and that I am worth something. Have a great week and I will hopefully not let another two months go by.